March 2026
Keri is here again. In the moment, I do not know why. I am leaning towards this is my imagination, as there is no other logical reason. My Doctor tells me my health is good. Perhaps my brain isn’t?
Keri was in my dream last night. She tells me she wants to be with me. She wants to stay with me until I pass.
I am dumbfounded, I have heard of this before, but it is always single people who live alone who have ghosts move in with them, usually a spouse that has passed on.
A few days later – Keri is in my waking life now, hovering by me like a small, soft cloud. I have had some time to think about this situation, and it seems we can communicate. I can ask questions, and she responds with thoughts that form ideas or words.
I explain to Keri, I am happily married, and I do not know how to manage her as part of my life. I ask her why she wants to be with me, instead of moving on to where we all go when we pass (1), and start working on our life mistakes, and decide how we will do things better in our next life. I tell Keri, I will certainly be with her when I pass, as she told me - so what is the rush, and the need to be with me now?
A few more days later – It has been a mostly sleepless few days. I am very tired. My sleep is interrupted by conversation. On the bright side, I now understand….
Keri tells me her life was anything but great. after the first few years her marriage was loveless. Divorce for Keri was not an option for many reasons. This created a family schism, and drove her away from her family, and eventually from her children. She could not fake it, her life had been lonely and silent.
Keri wanted to be with me in the present, so she could have a semblance of a happy life, such as circumstances permitted. I told Keri, the man she knew over fifty years ago is long gone. In his place is a tired, old man. A tired old man who is also happily married, and deeply committed.
Keri also told me, she did not pass over, but placed herself in what we call, “Limbo” (2). Her religion and current beliefs do not allow for reincarnation, and she does not want to pass on feeling like her life was wasted.
I explained to Keri, that before we enter into this life, we have a pre-planned life script we create containing objectives and learning’s we want to accomplish. Often, the people on the other side whom we are close to agree to play a part in our life plan. Sometimes one of them is someone who helps us along and keeps us balanced. Sometimes one of our friends takes an adversarial role to help us grow. Whichever the case, our life plan is constructed for learning and growing. These are the objectives we plan our life around, learning and growing. Just because she feels her life is a wreck, does not mean, it wasn’t a life experience she needed to have for reasons not yet clear.
I explained to Keri, that when we die, and pass over, people who love us are there to greet us, and take us where we need to go. For a time, we we spend what I think of as quiet time away from everyone, to heal from the trauma and abuses our past life threw at us (not limbo). If we are experienced enough (3), we do this alone. Other times someone is there to guide us and protect us while we recover from our past life traumas.
After we are healed, we meet up with friends and family from past lives who we are close to. We join our own personal group (4) and begin to examine our past life in detail. We can do this now without emotion, because we are healthy again, and we can review our life without emotion getting in the way. We determine how well we matched up to our planned life, and if there was deviation in our life, why and how did it happen.
I explained to Keri, that before we enter into this life, we created our life script. This includes who our parents are, their personalities, economic level, etc. Also who our friends (and occasionally enemies, if we need them to learn a life lesson) will be.
Whether we live in the big city, or a poor village without electricity or running water. We find people who love us, to play these different roles for us. All to enhance our life learning. We develop the objectives and learning’s we want to have in our life. Just because Keri feels her life was a wreck, does not mean, it wasn’t a life she wanted and needed to have.
Keri tells me she will not interfere with my life or my marriage, she just wants to be around me. I tell Keri, I understand. And she needs to trust me, that her life was a sliver of all the lives she has lived and will live in our path of growing and learning.
For now, Keri is around me, but she does take time away from me, I am not sure why.
As of this moment, everything is as normal as normal can get under the circumstances. I find this very tiring, draining actually, and this bothers me. It does not feel right. One one hand I have this life, in this reality. At the same time, I am aware of Keri’s presence. Her presence feels like a small glowing ball of energy at the level of my head on my right side..
Keri is not interfering in my life per say, but this is hard to manage all the same. I do not like the feeling, and I do not care for the arrangement too much. I am hesitant to talk with her about it.
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